Diamonds On the Soles of My Shoes

I've been in a pretty blah/anxious/restless sort of mood as of late (much to do with the Bulls losing the series, THANKS guys) and I think writing will help ease my uneasiness. So let me dust off the cobwebs of this blog and get "write" to it, heh.

After spending an incredibly uninviting and uneventful fall semester at UA, I realized my heart just wasn't in it. There was no room to grow (mentally, emotionally, creatively, financially, socially, etc...). I may have been raised in a small town, but I truly am a city girl at heart and I need that hustle and bustle of city life to thrive and spread my wings. I think transferring was probably one of the worst decisions I have ever made, but familial and financial pressures will make you do crazy things, I suppose.

I'm glad I took this semester off. It was a good time for me to reflect and mentally prepare myself for things to come. For the first time I feel like I am finally on the right track to getting my life to where I want it to be. And while I know I won't always have people support or understand my decisions, I know that I just have to trust my instincts and stay focused on my life goals. I feel like I've missed out on so many life-changing opportunities because of silly mistakes I've made. And these mistakes were made mostly because I did not trust my instincts and believe in myself. But I'm learning to just let go and live my life. I'm a do me. No more listening to nay-sayers (aka HATERS) or second-guessing myself. I'm turning over a new leaf, chickies. Here's to new beginnings and a new ME. Love me or hate me, you will respect me. Okay, I'm done with the cliches.

Oh and Summer '09, watch out! It's going to be grand. Here's a list of things to look forward to (in order of awesomeness):

*Making a CHI-TOWN comeback!

*Reuniting with all my Chi lovelies (and seeing Maria graduate!)

*Attending my very first Lollapalooza (finally) and second P4K Fest (maybe).

*FANTASTIC weather and FREE outdoor festivals!!

*Gettin' back on my grind and working towards a media internship by fall or spring semester.

There's more to come, I'm sure. May 14th could not get here soon enough.